i didnt think of one yet let me get to that

wow i havent wrote in this thing in a while and things in my life have really changed. i now have a lil baby boy for those who dont know. his name is Skyler and he now weights 13 pounds and is 22 inches long. He is a lil heffer man. Well things in my life have changed soo much that im not sure i am the same person. I believe that i am not the same person i have changed but it is a good thing. I now know what responibility is. I never thought i would say that. I was the party girl and i never thought i would give that up this soon but i have. I dont regret anything that has happened it was all for a reason. I still havent figured out the reason but i understand that it was the best thing that has ever happened in my life. I am now trying to have a relationship with the man that i have loved for a very long time. I never knew it would be this hard but we are getting through it. Slowly but that is the only way to do it these days. I love him soo much that i wouldnt know what to do with myself if i didnt have him with me. He is great with his son they are a like a lil team they play all the time. I cant help but look at both of them and say i love you both soo much. It has been a hard roads to get to wear i am at now. I was in the hospital for a long time after i had the baby. I was horrible but i dealt with it. I had a lot of support and that is all that counts. Well back to the relationship thing we have had alot of thing that we have had to work through. We are doing this but it takes time. I know that we will be together as long as we work at it. Dont let anyone ever tell you this shit is easy. It isnt that is for damn sure. I never realized that you have to give up soo much maybe that is why i never had a really long relationship. Hell i dont know. Or maybe i just ahve been always waiting for him. I am willing to do all i can to make this work and i know it will. I know this because im working at it and so is he. Plus the baby he is the most important thing in both of our lives. I dont know what i would do with out the baby. That is amazing because before i would have never thought i would have one. Well that is how much life can change in a very small amount of time. I never really liked change until now and i still dont really like it i just have to deal with it. It is one of the things that i ahve to deal with the most. So it doesnt really matter if i like it i must deal because change is always there when there is a baby involed. well im gonna cut this off now but sorry i havent wrote in a while but as you can tell i have had a lot of thigns going on in my life. HEHE!!!!!!!!!!!!